I’m Thinking of Just Letting go

It’s been a long road

There is this thing about madness. It only lasts as long as the delusion persists. Once there is no benefit to the mind to believe an unreal thing, then the unreal thing goes away. I do that from time to time, I see it in a lot of other people. They believe crazy is good and then they see it isn’t anymore, and at that point they form it into some kind of belief to save face.  “Dude walked on water!” Then, “It’s a metaphor.” Then that becomes, “Dude was skating on the surf.” Then that becomes, “Well the divine works in divine ways.” So it’s all just sort of rando and kind of opinion on top of it all.

Bat 💩 is only Bat 💩without evidence

So we have the other issue. I can deal with my crazy as my crazy and accept that my crazy is just my crazy. Eventually my crazy goes away. It’s a matter of perception. But then what happens when it’s persistent? What happens when it proof is provided and it can’t go away? This is the problem with something I’ve been living with for over a decade, and something else that I’ve lived with for over 2 years. I’ve had crazy moments and I understand the crazy moments, because the eventually have to go away and there is proof to make them go away. But what do you do when it becomes evidence?

Reality sucks. Trust me. The idea that something is just belief is annoying, but it makes reality easy and pleasant, because living in lala land can sometimes become a nightmare. Delusional beliefs crumble and what is left is usually a lot better. But when you see something time and time again and it just doesn’t change, you test it and it passes the testing, you measure it and it’s measurable, then it becomes a thing and maybe it’s way better than this isn’t a thing. But reality is reality and the thing of reality is that as matrix like as this thing is, it’s just as real as the rock across the street, or the street itself, or the time of day.  And now I have to live with what I know and deal with life in that context.  It is way weirder than I want to explain.

So we are now left to it. I have to accept reality as it is. I can’t make it go away. I have to move forward now. All I can tell you is that things are going to get really different than you would expect. Hang on to those you love and try and enjoy this ride. The weird has yet to really arrive. Might want to get the big popcorn for this next decade, I suggest you roll with it, white knuckling might seem in order, but you could cut loose and float if you relax.